April 21, 2019
Happy Easter! I am so thankful I get to celebrate another Easter with my family and friends.
Tomorrow I start my chemo treatment. I do feel some apprehension but I also know beyond a
shadow of a doubt that God loves me, He holds me in the palm of His hands, His promises are
all for me and that He has chosen this path for me. But I am human and there are moments of
anxiety that creep into my mind.
My expectations can get the best of me. You would think after all these years I would not put
that on me, but lo and behold I still do. thats also when my attitude goes south and I begin to
nitpik on people that I love. Tsk tsk.
I had these plans for Easter and they went awry. It didn't turn out the way I wanted but I am
reminding myself I am grateful I am here.
May God bless you all.
Sunday, April 21, 2019
Saturday, April 6, 2019
The Journey Has Begun
I haven't blogged in a while because I couldn't find how to do a new post. Finally my hubby took my computer and began fiddling with it. Aha, he got it to where I can do a new post. Perhaps also, God wanted to build up things in my life to make it worthwhile to post.
Where do I begin? 2018 my health plummeted and I ended up in the hospital several times. Doctors trying to fix what was wrong and always being cautious not to jump into some radical treatment. Well on March 6, 2019 symptoms showed that I needed to have all of my large intestines (colon) removed. If I hadn't had the surgery done at that time, I would have died. I was so malnourished. After removing the colon, I thought my problem was solved, and although I wasn't thrilled to live with an osteomy appliance for the rest of my life, I felt I could adapt. God was allowing me to live and eat!
The pathology report said another thing. Under the part of the colon that was so constrictive was
cancer, stage 3, even in my appendix. We were not prepared for this. Cancer had never even entered our minds.
Stunned, shocked are only two words that come to mind. I cried out "But Lord, I just went through a radical surgery and now cancer?" Its a whole new world. My or I should say our, as Tex is with me every step of the way, world is hospitals, scans, insurance consults, classes, long car rides, tears, frustration, blood work, new procedures. etc. Oncologist says 6 months of two type of chemo. UGH
How will I make the best of this new journey which I know 100% the Lord is allowing? My foremost
thought is how will this bring glory to God? What type of ministry does He require of me? I want to be useful and I want others to know how real my God is. Each decision I make must be bathed in prayer. Each person I meet or is put in front of me is sent by my Lord for me to minister to or for me to learn from.
Please join me on this journey. I covet your prayers and thoughts. You are all precious to me.
Where do I begin? 2018 my health plummeted and I ended up in the hospital several times. Doctors trying to fix what was wrong and always being cautious not to jump into some radical treatment. Well on March 6, 2019 symptoms showed that I needed to have all of my large intestines (colon) removed. If I hadn't had the surgery done at that time, I would have died. I was so malnourished. After removing the colon, I thought my problem was solved, and although I wasn't thrilled to live with an osteomy appliance for the rest of my life, I felt I could adapt. God was allowing me to live and eat!
The pathology report said another thing. Under the part of the colon that was so constrictive was
cancer, stage 3, even in my appendix. We were not prepared for this. Cancer had never even entered our minds.
Stunned, shocked are only two words that come to mind. I cried out "But Lord, I just went through a radical surgery and now cancer?" Its a whole new world. My or I should say our, as Tex is with me every step of the way, world is hospitals, scans, insurance consults, classes, long car rides, tears, frustration, blood work, new procedures. etc. Oncologist says 6 months of two type of chemo. UGH
How will I make the best of this new journey which I know 100% the Lord is allowing? My foremost
thought is how will this bring glory to God? What type of ministry does He require of me? I want to be useful and I want others to know how real my God is. Each decision I make must be bathed in prayer. Each person I meet or is put in front of me is sent by my Lord for me to minister to or for me to learn from.
Please join me on this journey. I covet your prayers and thoughts. You are all precious to me.
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