Here it is, the end of 2012. Didn't it just seem like we stepped into 2012 and here we are getting ready to ring in 2013! When I was younger, I used to roll my eyes when someone would say time is going by so fast. But, now as I have more years behind me than in front of me, it truly does appear that time is racing by.
I close this year realizing that 2012 was a year of learning to trust God more and more. By learning I really mean God thrust me into situations where I needed to totally trust Him. Some of the situations He allowed in my life I willingly trusted Him. Other situations, fear encapsulated me, doubt rang through my mind and God had to push me and prod me into trusting Him. Those are the moments I felt Him thrusting me into trusting Him.
I will let you in on one of those moments. After my two heart attacks in January and February, this rang through my mind over and over again...."Now I lay me down to sleep I pray the Lord my soul to keep". That was my nightly prayer before I would close my eyes each night. The fear of will I awake for another day on earth, or will I be taken to be with the Lord is ever on my mind. You know how we casually say "can't wait for the Lord to return, or I'm ready to go home to the Lord" and we chuckle, "I'm ready, I'm ready", but let me tell you, when you are face to face with the idea of stepping into eternity there is a reluctance. Not of seeing and being with God, but of leaving those you love behind. Let's all go together, that would be ideal, but that's not usually the case. So every night I was thrust into trusting that God knows best and that "If I should die before I wake", I trusted God would , "pray the Lord my soul to take".
Thrust into trusting and letting go of fear. Not easy for someone who loves to be in control but still learning that God is in control. So I end 2012 with this to all of you...the one constant we can trust fully and depend on 100% is God and God alone, no one else. Friends come and go, children grow up and leave home, BUT God will never leave you. Relationships disappoint you, BUT God will never disappoint you. Loneliness may creep in BUT God is always present in your life. No one to talk to? God is readily available 24/7 to listen. Confused by the media (what is the truth?), God's Word is the absolute truth and brings comfort. What will 2013 bring to all of us? I am praying we will devote more time to HIM!
